i must admit i have been bugging the Lord for something for like two weeks now and all i keep finding myself saying is, “c’mon, Looord, let it happen. just will it, pleeeeease!”
i don’t get mad, i just persist.
today, i met with my building contractors and our discussion veered towards my other concerns both in the apparel business and domestic front. their comment was, “oh my, you have a lot on your plate — too many problems.”
i could not help but retort quickly, ” no, i don’t think of them as problems. these are just things i have to stand up for.”
to me, something becomes a problem only when i cannot get the help i need from God. that is a biiiiiiig problem. where else would i go?
still, i persist in asking. not many people realize it, but i’m a shy person. with God though, i can be and say anything repetitiously, irritatingly, naggingly, agonizingly, and disturbingly … 24/7. believe me, with Him, i persist — really persist.
that’s probably why He has to jolt me into some catastrophic incident for me to finally conclude, “oooops. so that couldn’t be done, Lord?”
now it’s worse being on my own. the minute i get inside my room, He is all i have. and, i am all His — full blast.
“You are a wonderful God, dear God. i am not apologizing for being annoying because You are all i have. You need to understand that. You are limitless, You are all power, You are all knowing, You own everything, You are the source, You see all, and You are big. and, who am I? c’mon, Lord Jesus, please just will iiiittttt!
thank You for the angel You sent tonight in the person of my dear friend who offered me unsolicited help with my other “problem.” that one is looking solved.
what would i do without You? after all, i must admit, mine is a great life — all because of You!
i love You, my sweet Jesus.”
God’s mark of approval, whenever you obey Him, is peace. He sends an immeasurable, deep peace; not a natural peace, “as the world gives,” but the peace of Jesus. (My Utmost For His Highest)