“Not everyone who says to me, ‘Lord, Lord,’ will enter the kingdom of heaven, but only the one who does the will of my Father in heaven.” – Matthew 7:21 – 23
i started this blog eight months ago for the purpose of ensuring that i would constantly keep myself in check about what really pleases the God i love. now and then, i am thrown into minute incidents which i am certain God frowns upon.
yesterday, i grabbed something to eat on the way home. when the car stopped at the first traffic light, i was already biting into a stout, cheesy hungarian sausage sandwich and savoring it when a young, peasant girl, about 14 years old, knocked on my window for some coins.
my driver was quick to tap on the glass (a signal they understand that they aren’t getting any for now). but she stayed on, my driver tapped again. she kept begging and begging, this time for what i was eating.
it was getting uncomfortable. since she wouldn’t budge and i was starving, i fumbled in my bag for my wallet and gave her some coins. immediately, she gave out a joyful yell. a host of other kids suddenly appeared from somewhere in the back, swarming around the car. i got mad.
i wasn’t mad about the kids or their number. i was mad about 2 things. first, that she rudely and shamelessly asked for my food. i just believe that whether or not you are impoverished, you still have to show some manners, some decency, and respect for others. (she could just have continued begging for money.)
next, that she tricked me.
i found myself explaining that to my God.
“I, a guilty sinner, can never work to get right with God— it is impossible. There is only one way by which I can get right with God, and that is through the death of Jesus Christ. I must get rid of the underlying idea that I can ever be right with God because of my obedience. Who of us could ever obey God to absolute perfection!” — My Utmost For His Highest
“my Lord, i am very sorry.”