let me start with a question. “am i really a Christian, passionate about abiding in Christ and Christ in me?”
let us not fool ourselves with the number of masses and prayer meetings we attend in the week, or the rosaries we recite absent-mindedly, or the singing and preaching ministry we belong to, or the callouses on our knees.
the only passion of a true Christian is “the breaking and collapse of the hard, outer layer of my independence from God and the surrendering of my life to the supremacy of the Lord Jesus into oneness with Him, into absolute servitude to Him — no longer following my own ideas of what i am going to be but allowing Him to help Himself to me. the one point to decide is— will I give up?
everything else is religious fraud.” — My Utmost For His Highest
to help Himself to me.
if the Lord i love and who loved me first was hmmmmm… even just a tad dodgy, fickle, irresponsible, unfaithful, unreliable, lying, inconsistent, violent, scheming… like, more human than God, i would not, for the life of me, even think of it!
but because Christ is who and what He is, i have welcomed Him to help Himself to me.
“my Lord, our conversation this morning? yes, i meant that.”