let’s face it. Christ’s words are quite difficult. why? because they always demand sacrifice. He asks of us something but it also means giving up another — just like when Jesus told the avid ruler, ’You still lack one thing. Sell all that you have . . . and come, follow Me.’ but of course, the young man walked away and became very sorrowful because he was so rich.
we want to do God’s will. we are enthusiastic. every cell of our being aches to have God in our lives. we pray for the Holy Spirit to take full charge of us so we will always follow Him. now we may not be as rich as the young ruler but still we find ourselves in a quandary — what are we to do with our present preoccupations? abandon?
because a couple of years ago, i had heard Him speak, i agreed and committed. but, He has blessed me with too many commitments that have deterred me from working on His project.
now, instead of worrying and getting discouraged, i have taken the delay to mean that He feels i am not ready yet — spiritually, mentally, and emotionally.
and it’s true. what others may call distractions are actually needed milestones for my full growth — the personal and spiritual transformation by the Divine. this waiting time has evidently been a learning and pruning phase for me. i have shed a great deal of my old ways and beliefs that were of the world but only the Lord knows when exactly i am fully healed.
now, unexpected circumstances are happening in my life that could be freeing up a lot of time for me in the near future. and i am expectant. i cannot wait to see how all this will unfold into God’s real purpose for me in His kingdom.
“Our Lord knows perfectly well that once His word is truly heard, it will bear fruit sooner or later. one thing is certain— He will never throw our past failures back in our faces.” — My Utmost For His Highest
while waiting though, we always need to come before God in prayer. why? because it is the only way we can maintain our Godly focus… that we can be the “good soil” that cultivates and grows His word and presence in our lives, serving Him in simple everyday ways, and ministering His love to those we meet today, next week, next month, next year, and the years to come.
“I love You, Jesus, my love.”