my over-a-decade-old copy of My Utmost for His Highest has its pages underscored, encircled, punctuated, and scribbled on with personal notes, etc.– lines which touched me sometime in the past.
today’s page is like that. like, “God called Jesus Christ to what seemed absolute disaster. His life was an absolute failure from every standpoint except God’s. But what seemed to be failure from man’s standpoint was a triumph from God’s standpoint, because God’s purpose is never the same as man’s purpose.… ‘-
or, Our real test is in truly believing that God knows what He desires. The things that happen do not happen by chance— they happen entirely by the decree of God……
and, we begin to see that the compelling purpose of God lies behind everything in life…
lastly, A Christian is someone who trusts in the knowledge and the wisdom of God, not in his own abilities. If we have a purpose of our own, it destroys the simplicity and the calm, relaxed pace which should be characteristic of the children of God.
lines like these, i cannot help but agree with and take comfort in.
it has taken me a lot of unlearning to just stay calm and relaxed amidst difficulty and want. since i was nineteen, i earned my own keep (not by necessity but by choice… i liked the challenge of it), looked after the needs of my 4 growing children, provided jobs for my workers in the last 31 years, and simultaneously, coped with the highs and lows of not just running a business but also the highs and lows of my marriage or relationship i was in. so, i have been used to and trained to look after myself and others.
i prayed and called on God all that time but the complete surrender and reliance on Him wasn’t there yet.
lately, although i have my unguarded moments of losing my cool in pressing times, i am able (only by His grace) to quickly take on the perspective and attitude of a true Christian believer who trusts in the knowledge, wisdom, provision, purpose, and love of God.
and believe me, it makes a whole load of difference.
“dear God, thank You for this deep faith in You and Your Spirit that dwells in me. increase it further, Lord, so that whatever comes my way, i can remain unfazed in Your love. i ask for the same kind of grace for my children, my family, and friends because there is no peace greater than the one we find in You.”