When I come into the very presence of God, I do not realize that I am a sinner in an indefinite sense, but I suddenly realize and the focus of my attention is directed toward the concentration of sin in a particular area of my life. — My Utmost For His Highest
only by the grace of God have i become fully aware of His presence and i count myself among the blessed.
through the Holy Spirit, i know exactly now not just the particular areas of sin in my life but also the root cause of it. now my problem is, i want very much to completely eradicate this weakness so that amidst temptations, i triumph every time. but no, i am forgetful of my resolve and lose focus intermittently. and, i am forever ashamed of myself to God because i am hopelessly proud.
my pride causes me to sin.
when unguarded, the sin of pride exhibits itself in an overblown ego that makes me look down on others and in selfish motives that make me disregard the interests of others — a disrespect for God. i acknowledge my faults and struggles and i repent today that being open and transparent, i may meekly merit the intercession of those who read.
“my Lord in my feebleness, i humble myself before You so many times yet You never tire of me. You see and know my heart, dear God, and i m grateful for that. forgive me and grant me the grace to be able to work out consciously what i need to do to overcome my weaknesses and live by example. in the meantime, thank you for the confidence and peace i find in Your loving mercy. amen.”